On a Personal Note : Panic Attacks About Work

It’s Sunday night at my house, and I am struggling to do anything. My panic about work has been STRONG all weekend long, and I am not sure how to deal with it. My partner and I are just so burnt out working so hard, and trying to see WHY we are doing it feels hard. I am currently taking anxiety medication, and it actually is helping me overall, but this upcoming work event I have is really getting to me, and taking away my weekend relaxation. I’m so far behind and doing the work of several people (or at least that’s what it feels like!), and there are tasks I have been putting off that are beginning to haunt me.

Days like these make me want to quit my job and take on something different and non traditional, like working for a restaurant or store or just doing my own thing, but I don’t think that’s realistic in the moment and I also don’t want to take a way the sense of financial stability I’ve built for myself over the past two years. After being a part time employee and the default parent for so many years while my partner built his career, in recent years I’ve been faced with doing everything on my own, and I don’t want to put myself in the position of relying on anyone but myself.

I didn’t mean to accidentally become important at my current job, and I don’t know how to back track. I’ve just reached a little past the two year mark of my time there, and I feel at at a total loss. There are things I like about my position, but so much more that I dislike, and the traditional 9 - 5 hours don’t serve me or my ADHD brain. When I was hired, the work was supposed to be hybrid, and now it’s all about return to office. I just feel EXHAUSTED and questioning if life is supposed to be like this - the constant stress and worry, and the working so hard with no end in sight.

What are some methods and tricks you use to fight the Sunday Scaries?